One step closer

Today I had my medi port put in for my Chemo. Fairly easy procedure. It's on my left side just left of my collar bone. I'm alttle sore, but one step closer to starting my chemotherapy. It's really starting to hit me, that Monday will be my first treatment.Sometimes I still struggling with this whole Chemo thing. I had a bad night last night, crying about what's to come. I'm scared of the unknown. How will it feel going in? How will I feel after? Will I get sick? It's all these things multiplied by 100, and that's my anxiety level. I keep thinking positive, and remembering that this is only a preventative measure, but it doesn't seem any easier. I just keep praying and looking forward to the Spring because by May I will be done with everything, and on the road to recovery and reconstruction. I kind of feel like bulb you plant in the fall. I'm in a dormant stage now, and when the spring comes I'll shed my outer layer and rise up through all the rubble blossoming into a beautiful new flower! My mind, body, and soul will be renewed! So please keep me in your prayers for the up coming weeks ahead!